Back to the Future, three (Like where it was in the past, because I'm now thirteen hours in the past, since having left Japan)

Back to Ohio, which phonetically means, "Good morning!" in Japanese. But that joke has been overdone. Just not in America, because no one would get it.

So this is I back in... Oh. Hi! Oh...

Been here for about a month, now. It's good here. In Akron. With the Sharon and Brian. My fears placed in a sort of different stratosphere now. For example, in Japan, my main fear was offending people inadvertently, looking like or sounding like a jackass because of my misinterpretation of what was said or done, and the fear of regressing back to a state where i would be less direct with people and become more passive aggressive and confusing than I already was. Now what I fear is the possibility of being attacked while walking around at night alone, rocks or bullets flying through our windows, and getting sick with no health insurance. I like these fears better because they make me appreciate the important things in life like people and my heart's desires. That's good enough for me!

All right. I'm on a mission to help with paper-writing. And shall.

Two Months to Live

i leave the land of wa in two months. about. i'm still trying to deal with that. i haven't written anything in a while. i'm terrible at updating. forget what i'm updating for. i'm all confused with thoughts and anxiety that are really quite めんだくさい. i would rather i was not going to be extreme busy every weekend onward. i'm tired. i just wanna be done. of everything here. i'm just done. just wanna rest for like two weeks. hibernate. go somewhere warm. winter does make me like this. but i have no motivation and the day at school drains me. so where is the energy gonna come from? maybe i'm low in iron. it could explain the nosebleeds. and a lack of platelets could be causing me to be lethargic and stuff. says peter. it's possible.

*sigh*

yay.